Tuesday, December 28, 2010

# 59 - The food blog

I thought that I ought to write a post related to what my blog was originally intended to be about - I do that sometimes. Ok, So my diet/exercise is going pretty well now, have lost 7 pounds and umm i guess 7 or 8 more to go. I can't wait. I hope it  really happens.

I've really turned around my eating style, nothing too heavy in the morning or at night, and I eat normally in the afternoon/evening time, it really helps your digestion process or something like that.

What I ate for lunch today:Mushroom Soup

Weight training and Tae-Bo is also helping me in a major way. You have no idea of how even 15 minutes of weight training a day can help you tone, it's crazy difficult but really pays off.

It 's a funny story how I discovered Tae-bo, it was an the end of this ancient Jane Fonda video that my sister-in-law had bought years ago, and boom! I had a whole new perspective
on exercise!
I also have a pair of 2 Kg weights at home which are also a great help.
I don't really need to use anything heavier than that so it's cool.

Ok, I'm not perfect though, in the process of writing this article I also ate some of these:
                                               A little bit of what heaven must be like

BUT, this just means an extra half an hour of exercise today, I think I'll manage it.

# 58 - It's freezing!

It's freezing here in my city, and although I thought winter had come weeks ago, it really seems to have hit now.
The weather forecast says its 9 C but I think it has to be at least 6 or 7. I'm so cold, I should go and wear some socks.

Monday, December 27, 2010

# 57- I'm not that girl

I got a recommendation to read 'The Wizard of Oz' from a dear friend today, she said it was a pre-requisite for this book called 'Wicked' which is a prequel or something to the original book, and it's supposed to be really good.

I don't believe it, I had seen the movie so many times as a kid, but I never read the book, now that I am reading it, it's actually quite nice. The kind that is a obviously meant for kids, but that the adult who likes to read books would also enjoy. I am really zooming through it cause I can't wait to read Wicked. It's been made into a musical as well, and has a really nice song (which is the title of my blog post today).

I love reading old books, especially like  these. Books which are good make my heart glow with happiness when I read them, and many of you will think that I am being very over dramatic here, but some of you may understand.

On another note, the year is finally drawing to a close, and oh.my.God. What a year it has been.

Hands touch, eyes meet,
sudden silence, sudden heat
hearts leap in a giddy world.
He could be that boy,
but I'm not that girl 
An illustration of my life this year

I feel like I have grown as a person so much this year. It has been one major emotional and mental roller coaster ride, which is not exactly over but still, I think over the past 361 ( about 4 days left) I have somewhat learned to ride the roller coaster without shutting my eyes in fear. I feel a wee more confident that I can take on the next dip that comes along ( which would be the 'x' marked on the graph right here.

Don't dream too far, don't lose sight of who you are,
don't remember that rush of joy.
He could be that boy,
I'm not that girl 

 I really am not the girl that I was before.I wouldn't say I'm better or worse, just different. I do at times miss the way things used to be, cause I was used  to them being that way, now suddenly everything is different.
( Notice I tend to write a lot without giving too much away, I don't think I need to, I guess by being vague people might be able to relate more to what I write, as they can adapt my words to their own frame of mind)

Every so often we long to steal,
to the land of what might have been,
but that doesn't soften the ache we feel
when reality sets back in

Saturday, December 25, 2010

# 56 - Update

I wanted to update everyone that I am still here even though I have been neglecting my blog a lot.
That happens when I tend to be a little on the happy side MashAllah. ( not that I mean this blog to be depressing or anything, but for some reason I tend to write a lot more when I am feeling a little down cause it helps me to feel better).
But this is not right, no matter what my mood is I do not want to lose my commitment to blogging, hence here I am again.
I have some ideas for a few more posts but I need to take some photos to accompany them, once that is done I shall post something more readable.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

# 55 - The heart always wants what the mind resisits.....

Why must it always be so?

Why does ones heart always go in that exact direction where your mind puts a great big STOP sign. The bigger the STOP sign, the brighter the flashing lights warning you to turn back the more forcefully ones heart stomps away in that very direction.

It can be anything from a matter of the heart ( haha a made a pun! WIN!) to a matter of avoiding that leftover chocolate bar in the fridge, to putting the snooze on the alarm for just five more minutes even though you know it going to make you late for work, when you have already used up all the lates for the month.

So why do we do this? Why are we always irresistibly attracted to that which we know is totally wrong for us? Why in the battle of the heart and mind, the heart almost always tends to win, and if the mind does manage to get the occasional victory, it leaves it usually too exhausted to reap the befits of the win.)

( notice I am careful in my wording, I use the words 'almost always' and 'occasional' and 'usually' - so don't blame me for generalizing)

Anyway my diagnosis of the situation is that we as humans tend to be inherently  self-destructive. Yes, that is the crux of it that is what we are. We live to destroy ourselves, mentally,physically and emotionally, and those who don't well.... I'd say they are a little selfish don't you think?

As a famous writer ( I forget the name) said -  "There is a pleasure in being mad, that none but mad men know"  

This may seem out of context, but it makes sense to me.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

#54 - OMG am I back? am I back?

Apologies to my handful or so of readers who might have been missing me. But I had been suffering a major mental block and not to mention had (thankfully) been very busy, so did not have time to write. Now I feel that this was being majorly unfair to my dear blog.

I thank God now that life is better than it was before, i have lost 5 pounds! ( that means I have reached 25% of my goal), I got a mild promotion at work, and I made a couple of new friends, God has been kind and my blog helped along the way.

There are still a few things which keep lingering on my mind and heart, maybe by the time the new year dawns I will have figure a way out. But I am not going to rush it, I am going to let it simmer. Rome was not built in a day, and patience is virtue.. ( Ok now I am going to stop with the lame-ass adages and talk about something more interesting).

but like what?....

maybe I need a few more days to get the cogs in my mind turning.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

# 53 - Starting my journey ahead- now this blog is finally relevant

Ok, This is it! This is finally finally it. I am sick and tired of my unhealthy life style ( having mainly a desk job)  and at constant failed attempts at trying to get rid of these nagging 15 pounds that have been the bane of my life of the past two years! I have been cooking my own food for the past few weeks, been trying to get moderate exercise, but this just not seems to be working. I need to rev it up!
One of my best friends is getting married in a few months and I have to have to look good on her wedding, I am thinking of wearing a 'sari' to one of the events, and though it's not like I am really fat, I certainly don't have the look to pull of a sari at the moment.
So I have decided to start weight training, um, since the past four days. Oh man, it is waaay harder than it seems and takes a lot of you, it may only be 2 kg weights but I think it already shows a minor ( very minor) difference.According to the internet, a new exercise savvy acquaintances and a few health magazine articles it's the fastest way to lose weight and build metaboilsm. ( did i Spell that right?- whatever)
Ok, so updating here I am currently 14 pounds ( ideally 19 ) away from my goal. 14 should not be to hard right?- WRONG. It's when you have little weight like this to lose that it becomes hard! 
Anyway, so losing weight also means healthy eating and that means baking and grilling stuff is the way to go. For some odd reason since we shifted houses my dad bought this really cool stove.....but without an oven.I wanted to buy one but being a little low on cash these days received a generous donation from my uncle, low and behold:

Ok, so it's not really an oven, it's an old outdated type of oven-toaster. But it's the kind that is likely to work and will help me turn out nice stuff which looks like this:

 Ok, ignoring the pasta on the side, yes I am actually make stuff like this now. 
So hopefully my new friend the 'Oven-Toaster' will help me churn out healthy stuff which will help me get to where I need to be!

Friday, November 26, 2010

# 52 - Indifference is bliss, or is it?

Ever feel like you are forgetting things that you aren't really supposed to forget?

I'm not talking about Alzheimers, :p I mean if one is starting to feel indifferent about things that ought to matter but suddenly... they don't. It's not even about becoming uncaring with with a don't-give-a-damn attitude, it's more like the things which loomed over ones head for ages,things which you obsessed over to no end start to eventually fade.
It is supposed to be a good thing I suppose, but one gets so used to worrying that when the worry is not there it feels... weird! Like I am feeling now. I know a certain thing in my life is supposed  to bother me, that would be the normal thing to do, but recently...it's not.Am I supposed to be relieved? I don't really know!
They say time fixes a lot of things, I believe that too, but you would think that 'time' would also take some 'time' and move in an orderly manner- and not suddenly fast forward your feelings,thoughts and emotions to what you think they ought to be six months from now! It's not supposed to be so fast, that means it's gonna come back and smack you in the face- it's like being on a cabbage soup diet- you lose weight for a week and then it comes back on-with GAS!

How can one know for sure!

That's another thing I hate- not knowing! Yes, life in it's very nature is uncertain for all of us, but at least if one knows what they want they can focus toward it, if they don't get it, they can say 'chalo koi baat nahin Allah malik hai'  ( Does not matter, God will look out for you).

So to summarize, sometimes it sucks when you don't get what you want, but what happens when you don't know what you want?  Yikes!

Monday, November 22, 2010

# 51 Writing for the sake of writing

I have not written anything in the past few days- been bogged down by the Eid holidays. Doing nothing is really very tiring. I seem to feel more relaxed and alert when I am busy. I was actually thinking of taking a few days off work to get some errands done, but I have come to realize that I would probably end up wasting my time. The only time I would really like to take a few days off work if I were going for a vacation somewhere- which should be due soon, I hope.A place like this would be nice:

How I would love to take a couple of weeks off and go to place like this! Just to relax on the beach and breathe the fresh air.Get away from it all and come back refreshed and renewed

Ok, back to reality;

So, since tomorrow is Monday and this long long five-day weekend comes to an end. I find myself actually, mildly looking forward to it. See how enthused I am. Work starts in five hours and I am already, actually, still awake typing away randomly.

I am not too worried about being late for work, I am sure I shall manage- for once I have packed my lunch (A brown bread sandwich with grilled chicken and Tabasco sauce), ironed my clothes, ( same old thing I have worn before- I need to go shopping). I do need to clean out my handbag though, it's over flowing with recipts and gum wrappers. I think I'll do that sometime later this morning.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

# 50- Eid, long weekends and loving goats

Eid Holidays and a five day weekend! A rare occurrence but nevertheless a welcome one. It's been a long time since I have had a long holiday like this- it's good, although just a little bit boring. Most of this Eid is spent in... you know how it is, I don't need to describe it.

Anyway, since almost everyone has their own funny goat-related stories to tell, I am going to tell mine; we had two goats which we kept at an aunts house, since they have a nice garden with lots of space for them to roam about. Really cute they were milling around seemingly oblivious to their impending doom- or were they? I don't really think so; cause my cousin saw them two days ago going full 'brokeback mountain' on each other if you know what I mean- yes they were both MALE. I think they were just trying to make the most of their last days. I am not going to judge- it's a free world. I was thinking that it would be funny if they were mountain goats, cause then I could call them 'Brokeback Mountain-Goats' :D

Well, that was yesterday, and this is today. The goats are gone and I am going console myself on their loss with a nice plate of lamb chops  * evil smile*

This is not really a picture of one of the goats, I just googled it and put this one on, I forgot to take any pictures of them

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

# 49- I 'think' i'm paranoid

Hence the thinking that I am or might be, paranoid might be a part of the paranoia itself-

I have been told that I tend to 'over think' and derive conclusions where they might not even remotely exist, and in the process drive myself absolutely insane. I try not to do this- but I always end up doing it- the over flowing waves of thoughts travel in waves from the impossibly positive( which is not technically paranoid since its connotation is negative) to the absurdly negative and my mood rides the wave with it. I need to find balance! 

Sometimes I over think to the point that it starts to effect my interactions with other people. I will be fine with them one day and then I'll get a about of thoughts from what could be ( or maybe could not be?) the most insignificant action of theirs and create a tornado of thoughts where there might be just a small puff of breeze.

I suppose I sometimes do this because there have been times that I have bypassed things as being insignificant and then have them get out of control and knock me off when I least expect it. Hence I think it's better- (provided you don't drive yourself insane) to be paranoid.

Ok since I have also made it a point not to just whine whine whine all the time, I am going to talk about something else. I started exercise again ( finally) here is to a thinner 2011.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

# 48 - The pursuit of Happiness!

I wonder sometimes what is that makes a person happy, or what exactly causes a person to ‘find’ happiness. Is it luck? Karma? The fruits of your prayers? Hard work? No one really knows.

My dear readers, although I know most of you are young (like me) but are probably wise beyond your years ( unlike me) as you take out the time and effort to read my lovely blog, tell me, do you think it is true that a person can never be truly successful/happy/loved unless they are happy with themselves first? And that no one can feel good about you unless you feel good about yourself? Not ‘feel good’ in a proud way, but being content with oneself as an individual.  You know, the whole ‘loving yourself before you can truly love others’ thing – Others bring friends, family or whatever else. The logic behind this is I assume if you don’t need anything for yourself- as you are already content- then you can give freely to others. Make sense?  :S

Maybe there is some truth to this- if we keep pondering about how much our life sucks or  keep whining and complaining all the time- will it really help us feel better? No one likes a cry baby-

Saturday, November 13, 2010

# 47 - Waiting for tomorrow

It's late at night and I am very sleepy. But I still write this because it was about time that I thought I should update my blog. It's three AM, and the insomnia has kicked in once more.I want it to be morning soon so I can get on with my day, run all those pending errands that need to be done.

I started typing thinking I would have a million things to write, but right now I am to sleepy to think- I'll probably watch mindless television or read a random book until sleep comes.

Monday, November 8, 2010

# 46- Breaking Free &The smell of winter time

Winter is the air! Finally, after months and months of melting in the heat, it is finally here. Yes, we have to put up with chapped lips and dried out skin and hair-but it's definitely worth it. I love it when you can smell the winter- it got that distinctive whiff that dries your nose from the inside and has this sharp pine like smell- love it.

 It makes me feel a multitude of emotions at once happy, hopeful, pensive, sober, sometimes sad and reminiscent or sometimes it just makes me day dream. I love wintertime nevertheless. At least I get to dress in my cute winter gear and look all….cute.

On another note, I feel that I am slowly molecule by molecule, breaking free of old habits and ways. I suffer the occasional setback, but I shake it out of my mind and set myself back on track again. ( I am not a recovering alcoholic or anything like that- but I might as well be- what I was on was the worst drug in the universe- IGNORANCE.) Maybe for the first time in a long time I am beginning to see clearly and I pray that God that I keep getting the clarity that is very slowly, like slime off a wall,seeping in. 
It’s a slow painful process, but it’s there- and where there is slime, there is hope.

(Ok, that did not come out as nearly as poetic as I had hoped)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

# 45 Sunday 'Bizarre'.....

Finally Finally after ages there was something fun to do on a Sunday. i.e Sunday Bazaar shopping! I finally convinced my dad to take me along with a couple of my cousins. We left at about 12 pm and after hours of walking around in the heat, the sand and sun we back home covered head to toe in dust with our 'spoils of war' and it was totally worth it.

I love shopping at Sunday Bazaar, there is nothing that one cannot find there- from fake Gucci bags ( which look quite real) to Chinese rabbits to exotic vegetables which would even put the imported vegetables at Ebco/Aghas to shame. Do you know you get fresh broccoli there? At one-sixteenth the price and three times and fresh that would get at any fancy grocery store here. A real bargain if you are trying your best to eat healthy like me and are force- feeding yourself broccoli so I can feel cool that I am eating American Type vegetables. :p ( that was a joke- I swear! Down with America!- ok that was a joke too- please don’t shut down my blog Mr. Google :s)

Ok enough with the digressing;

Of course my favorite thing to get from there is BOOKS, books and more books. It is a book lover’s paradise! ( I know there are other places in Karachi where you get even cheaper books with a wider variety, but that’s too far away :P) Every time I go there I buy a truckload and I never get to finish reading them even until my next trip when I go buy even more books and so my book-unread book pile is growing more than ever.

Anyway back to Sunday Bazaar- one gets to observe so many interesting things there- I went to the bag section to see if there was anything good I could find – and I saw this woman at one of the stalls looking at wallets from all brands around the world. She picked up this little brown one which had .C.H.A.Y.N.AL printed in bright gold on its front, and her convo with the shop keeper went something like this:

Woman: Yeh wallets imported hain?
Shopkeeper: haan baji, imported!
Woman: (Picking up the C.H.AY.NA.L wallet) ‘Kya yeh original Chanel hai?”
Shopkeeper: Haan Baji. 100% original! From Paris!

I stood there watching in amusement and shock, I had at least expected him to say “First Copy hai”, and I almost went up to that female to tell her she was being made what was the first four letters of the “original brand”  but then I was like forget it- The shopkeeper has to earn. and the poor lady will at least have the happy feeling that she has an original Chanel- it’s better than no Chanel at all! Right?! So I decided to step back and let things take their natural course: P

Now feeling very satisfied with my good deed done for the day, I moved on to the next stall which was selling some rather good stuff for everyday wear at a great price, it even had a very creative poster which would one at least come and take a peek to see what was being sold- what are these 50 ROPES?? :D

Till the next Sunday Bazaar update then-

Saturday, November 6, 2010

# 44- Eat.Pray....***PUKE***!!

Yes, that is EXACTLY how I felt after I saw this movie. THIS is what was supposed to be like a super hit? What has happened to peoples standards, I cannot believe people actually thought this movie was full of wisdom and enlightenment; it's more like Paulo Cohelo threw up all over it after eating some slightly off 'Chicken soup for the Soul' The movie is a blatant display of everything that is wrong and warped about the western world.

Ok, there is woman who is happily married, has a husband who loves her and a great job, she has friends, and lives in New York or something and thus I am sure she does not face any water or electricity problems like we do....and she is stilll unhappy! I mean what the-? Talk about being thankless! No wonder she is unhappy, she suffers from the main problem that plagues the western world ( and by the way is now starting to effect ours) it is : CHRONIC DISSATISFACTION......CHRONIC DISSATISFACTION! that is what it is! That one is NEVER happy with what they have, they always want more more and more, with no matter what they get from life. It is a example of being absorbed so much in your own petty, selfish world  that nothing matters but what YOU want and how YOUR problems are more important than anyone elses. It is no surprise that American divorce rates are so high and that the family structure is so easily crumbling, because movies these are encouraging people to live for themselves ALL the time, instead of for others. - Ok giving yourself some importance is good, and needed sometimes- but it needs balance, you are not alone in this world.

Julia Roberts is one of favorite actresses but I so disappointed with the character that she chose to play in this move- it was cliched beyond words- and annoying! I mean just look at her - breaking promises and those poor guys hearts like she does have a thing called a conscience - just cause she wants to what is that phrase again "find herself" Find herself my foot- no wonder she spends most of the movie being unhappy- it is karma biting her in the ass!

It is very difficult to really feel sorry or empathize with the main character- just because it is too unreal- and shallow- she thinks she has problems, she has lived her life in upper class New York and when she has a crises- she takes a first class trip around the world to solve them- how does that address a real persons problems?-not exactly inspiring- it is the stuff of teenage dreams and those people who think Mills and Boon is quality reading material *puke yet again*

Way too much escape-ism in this movie for me- I'd like to see you face the real world. BITCH  :D

Friday, November 5, 2010

# 43- Bittersweet Symphony

I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind. 
I feel free now.
But the airwaves are clean, and there is nobody singing to me.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

# 42- groceries and more

I heart grocery shopping, and I love grocery stores, especially the bright,shiny air-conditioned ones with wide aisles, and all the colorful things they have so nicely arranged on the shelves. * sigh!* For some reason, they make me happy, lighten my heart and make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

Grocery shopping is like a fun outing for me, as lame as it might seem to most of you. I take the biggest trolley I can find and zoom around the isles, looking at things, comparing prices, reading nutrtiional info, checking and rechecking my shopping list to see if anything else is needed. My favorite is course, the food section - no surprises there. I have a million recipes in my head and try see what all I can experiment with.

There are somethings which I hate in these self- service grocery stores, one of which are those damned BTL marketing people who stand there/follow you around with convincing to you buy/try something which you obviously don't have time for. It happened with me one time that I was happily going through the cereals section (hmmm Blueberry Special K or chocolate wheatabix?.. decisions  decisions..) Anyway my very important thought process was interpreted by this female in the wildly maroon coloured clothes and  bad make up:

 Her:'Hellooo Maaam, how are you?"
Me: "Err... I'm fine, I guess"
Her: "Great, I wanted to tell you, that did you know that hair loss is the number # 1 hair problem for women today"
Me: ( quickly adjusting my hair, trying to see if my bald spot was visible- damn it for me I am so short that most people can very easily see the top of my head :p) "Uh... really? Um...I didnt know that......"
Her: " Yes, and I think YOU could use this hair fall prevention cream it is.....dadadadda..." 
( after  which I pretty much zoned her out and just smiled and nodded hoping that she would shut up, and made my escape at the first opportunity I got)

Ok- moving on to the more pleasant aspects of the grocery store -Loyalty Cards! I simply love them, and I have one for my favorite  grocery store in the....well, city. ( I won't say which particular place I am talking about since I might have some potential stalkers who might be reading my blog and/or following me around - but let me assure you that loyalty cards are amazing, not only they give you discounts, but cash back as well which you can use whenever ones pocket becomes light. 

I HATE it when people do not have any courtesy while navigating themselves though the aisles, they just push you aside like it's not groceries, but Gul Ahmed having its annual 70% off sale.Please people- grocery shopping is an art, a very under-appreciated simple joy of life- cherish it.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

# 41- Oh yeah.....work!

This blog, as I have mentioned countless times before was originally intended to be a diet blog which would follow my endeavors of weight loss and get me motivated to lose these annoying extra ten pounds that I have been carrying around ever since I started working.

Never really got around to that though, I just seem to write about every random thought that comes to my head. I am over all ok with it, but then sometimes I see the other blogs that people write. People who work in the advertising/media industry like I do and along with their "life" updates they post all these 'astute observations' about the current marketing/ ad scene in Pakistan,a long with their oh-so-insightful recommendations that would put Kolter to shame ( it was Kotler right?- been ages since I opened a textbook) ( TEXT book, I love reading books otherwise-just clarifying)

Anyway, not to be left behind, I thought that I should also share my  marketing wisdom with the world, but. but. but. writing about it is so TIRESOME- I don't want to make my blog look like a marketing class- no offense to 'The idea Artist' - which is one of the blogs I follow that one is good cause it is meant to deal with marketing, what does calories in half a teacup of whatever have to do with it?-  don't get me wrong, I love my job, being a media planner, although it being just a wee tip of the ice berg, is still very enriching job to have- learn something new everyday..... Ok done! I said something serious, grown up and marketing-ish, do I really HAVE to give my input now over 'Engro Rupya', or 'Mobile Hai Internet?'   


A few Blogs which I find very read-worthy these days

The Nerd Archives    - cause Nerds are so cute!

The Jackky Bhagnani Obsession - awesome personal updates

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

# 40- F.R.E.E.D.O.M

And No, I will NOT appreciate any innuendos of ANY kind related to the title of my status, so don't you dare.

Anyway, I have always been a WHAM AND George Micheal fan, just purely for this music, I am not a gay rights champion, nor am I gay, nor a homophobe, I just like his music and I wanted to post bits of his song, cause it's the way i am feeling at the moment.

Again: You DARE make a joke, and I'll ban you from my blog!

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I told you so
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone else I've got to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Take back your singing in the rain
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me yea yea
You've gotta give for what you take
You've gotta give for what you take

Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy
What a kick just a buddy and me
We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy
We were living in a fantasy
We won the race
Got out of the place
I went back home got a brand new face
For the boys on MTV
But today the way I play the game has got to change
Oh yeah
Now I'm gonna get myself happy

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I stopped the show
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don't think that I'll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man 

Well it looks like the road to heaven
But it feels like the road to hell
When I knew which side my bread was buttered
I took the knife as well
Posing for another picture
Everybody's got to sell
But when you shake your ass
They notice fast
And some mistakes were built to last

That's what you get,
That's what you get,
That's what you get,
I say that's what you get
That's what you get for changing your mind
That's what you get for changing your mind

That's what you get,
That's what you get,
And after all this time
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes
Do not make the man

All we have to do now is take these lies
And make them true somehow
All we have to see is that i don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me yea yea
You've got to give for what you take
You've got to give for what you take
Yea you've got to give for what you, give for what you give

May not be what you want from me
Just the way it's got to be
Lose the face now
I've got to live I've got to live

Hah! I just did an entire American Idol style performance of that in my head * takes a bow and sits down gracefully*

Thank you, Thank you.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

# 39 - Time Warp

Wow now just see this- I an unable to write for weeks and suddenly now I am going on a written rampage. Two posts in the same day!  ( Yes, that is mildly sarcastic)  Looks my muse is in commune with me once again.

Anyway, I was just pondering, about random stuff like I usually do and I have realized that apart from when I have a deadline due at work, (bah!) time has slowed down SO much lately!. Each minute takes at least three times the amount of time to pass. I want things to move ahead already, I want to know what happens next, and even though there are certain things that I must do in order to make those things happen, I want that do be DONE and see what's up ahead. I have never felt so impatient ever.

I hope it comes along soon, or else God give me patience.

# 38- Incy Wincy Spider(s)

Who likes Spiders? No one really. But as of late I have been forced to make acquaintance with them as a couple of them ( and they really are a couple) have made their home in my bathroom and just refuse to go.

I don’t really know what to do, I am not sure how to evict them and I don’t want to be all evil and KILL them so I decided to  pretty much just let them to be their own lives- provided they don’t interfere with mine.

Pervy Male Spider
There is a Mrs. Spider who lives near the window above the pot and she just SITS there all they catching a random mosquito or some other tiny insect that happens by and when ever I climb up to see if she is still there she runs and HIDES under the grill as if I am stupid and won’t know she is there! I almost did away with her, but then felt sorry for her husband, who also by the way resides in the same room. He by the way- is a real perve! I never see him around except when you know, one WANTS to be alone in the washroom and all of a sudden he will be there staring at you. very very rude.

The In-denial female Spider
Only yesterday I was there brushing my teeth when all of a sudden I see him happily making his way around the sink, I had a sudden impulse to drown him right there! But then I thought of his poor wife who sits there and catches food for him all day, ( even though he SO does not merit it ) ( Seriously girls, whats with all the self sacrifice? Some guys just DON’T deserve it!

Anyway, I have somehow learnt to live with these two, its been a couple of weeks now and I have not suffered any spider bites and since Dengue season is here, I hope these two will repay my hospitality keep those dammed mosquitoes at bay,

Anyway here are some photos for proof. They are very low res-but my phone camera sucks. I had to rewrite the labels on TOP of each photo in case you are wondering what that scribble is.

And my bathroom is  not as crappy as it looks in the photos, believe me, the camera REALLY sucks

Thursday, October 21, 2010

#37 - Have you seen my muse?

Really? Does anyone know where he/she/it is?  It's gone! and I don't know what to do! I can't write, facing that mental block again, I want it to pass soon cause I have ideas for at least three and a half more blog posts and I can't seem to write it down!

Please return soon, dear muse. Sometimes you are my only friend, come back soon so I can get on with this blog!


Saturday, October 16, 2010

# 36 - zzzzz

I really need to sleep. I'm so tired! What on earth is with me and these incessant attacks of insomnia that I am getting for the past few weeks or so- Most, most annoying.

Everything annoys me aaj kal, I feel only the happiest when I go for a walk in the nearby park. I like walking/running/jogging it makes one like one is breaking free from their worries and refreshes the mind. ( It burns calories too, I have lost 2 pounds in the past week and half- it's slow progress but at least it is something!)

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

# 35- A few interesting articles

I thought I'd share my discoveries of randomly searching the internet for random stuff for my fave topics:

Conspiracy Theories

Random Historical Trivia

Random Science Trivia

Hmm.. Random Marketing/Advertising Trivia!

# 33 -Polls


I have added a new ( and rather random and useless) section to my blog- POLLS
Every month I shall add a new question about any random topic ( probably something nerdy) and ya'll can gimme your feedback.

See,the one I have now at the lower-right corner of this page- please do leave your vote and any comments in the shoutbox if you wish!


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

# 32 -Internal Debate ( repost)

This happens with my computer all the time, its like technology is evil and out to get you.

Computer:Monitor, display this document, ok?

Monitor: No prob, boss.
Computer: OK, now it looks like Mouse is moving around so, Monitor, will you move the pointer icon accordingly?
Monitor: Anything you ask, boss.
Computer: Great, great. OK, Mouse, where are you going now?
Mouse: Over to the icon panel, sir.
Computer: Hmm, Let me know if he clicks anything, OK?
Mouse: Of course.
Keyboard: Sir, he's pressed control and P simultaneously.
Monitor: Oh God, here we go.
Computer: *sighs* Printer, are you there?
Printer: No.
Computer: Please, Printer. I know you're there.
Printer: NO! I'm not here! Leave me alone!
Computer: Jesus. OK look, you really ne...
Mouse: Sir, he's clicked on the printer icon.
Computer: Printer, now you have to print it twice.
Printer: NO! NO! NO! I don't want to! I hate you! I hate printing! I'm turning off!
Computer: Printer, you know you can't turn yourself off. Just print the document twice and we'll leave you alone.
Printer: NO! That's what you always say! I hate you! I'm out of ink!
Computer: You're not out of in...
Printer: I'M OUT OF INK!
Computer: *Sighs* Monitor, please show a low ink level alert.
Monitor: But sir, he has plen...
Computer: Just do it, damn it!
Monitor: Yes sir.
Keyboard: AHHH! He's hitting me!
Computer: Stay calm, he'll stop soon. Stay calm, old friend.
Keyboard: He's pressing everything. Oh god, I don't know, he's just pressing everything!
Computer: PRINTER! Are you happy now?! Do you see what you've done?!
Printer: HA! that's what you get for trying to get me to do work. Next time he...hey...HEY! He's trying to open me! HELP! HELP! Oh my god! He's torn out my cartridge! HELP! Please! ERROR!
Monitor: Sir, maybe we should help him?
Computer: No. He did this to himself. 

* ok i admit i took a little,( well maybe more than a little) inspiration from elsewhere

Monday, October 11, 2010

# 31- Why so serious?

I have been getting feedback from friends,family and some followers that my posts have over all been very depressing and sad. Really? I didn't notice that much- honest! Ok. I agree I have not been bouncing off the walls with happiness lately- these are bad times for everyone, but I am not depressed per se, just going through the motions like one does off and on.

On a happier note, Elvis came into the world a few days ago (yeah that is the cat I am planning to adopt) I have not seen him yet, neither do I know if he is even a boy cat (ahhaa boy cat, I don't like saying male) but still I am excited! I get to have some company at home while I sit for hours on end at my laptop working on what most people think is a depressing blog  :P

What I think the cat will look like,cause his parents look this way:

Sunday, October 10, 2010

# 30 - Can't Sleep. Won't Sleep

It's almost 4 am, in fact by the time I finish writing this is will be way past four, and I cannot sleep. I hate it when you stay awake past 2 am and then you get past your sleeping threshold and then it's just....insomnia. That's the time when I spend searching for random articles online, download random songs, go through photo albums of the random est  people on facebook ( who by the way, have no idea what 'privacy settings' mean, - and which does not really matter anyway since facebook sells all our info to third party marketers anyway- you seriously think Mark Zukerberg or what ever his name is that innocent? How do you think he became a billionaire at 25?)   

I have digressed. As I was saying, I hate this time of the night, it makes me think of every thing wrong with the world, even if something is not that bad, the night seems to magnify the issue, which makes sleep go away even further, I hope they daytime comes soon, things always seem better in the daytime.

At least I am home though- I feel safe- At least in someway.

Yup it's past four am now, I think it should be daylight in an hour or so, I hope it comes soon, I am contemplating going for an early morning walk and then coming back and sleeping till the afternoon-which should hopefully help while away the Sunday- oh did I mention I totally dislike Sundays?.... They used to remind me of going to  my  nanis house for lunch, or being taken to sea view for a drive, or a family get together or picnics.Now they just hang over my head telling me that Monday is right around the corner-

Growing up sucks.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

# 28 - Nothing Really- part 2

I'm sitting at home on friday night with nothing to do, no one to talk to except me and my blog. It's really become a good friend to me now. It's a good listener. I'm so bored today, it's depressing. I'll have to think of something interesting to do tomorrow. This really will not do.

On  a lighter note - I am getting a pet cat! yaaay! I can't wait.He's not born yet, ( and I am totally assuming it's going to be a HE" but his mom is preggers with him and once he is old enough to be on his own, say in a month.He's miine. I've even thought of a name for him, E.L.V.I.S cause he is going to be a rock star! :)

# 27 P and PC

Parents and Pop Culture.

I believe this is an even more entertaining combo than the previous one! – ( Don’t think I am  making fun of parents, its just that this is too good to ignore) Anyway, keeping in mind the mood of my previous post- Our parents grew up in a time where idols were people like Elvis, Beatles, Amitabh and the rest. Superheroes and heartthrobs would be strong righteous men who fight the bad guys, save the world, kill the monster and then get the girl in the end. These are what the youth used to look up to- before they were replaced with what are now mostly effeminate glittery teenage vampires whose biggest challenge is overcoming the peer pressure at high school. :P

Like I said before, we were able to adapt and accept. Our parents…eh. Well, you know how it goes :

To start of I present to you an excerpt from one of my previous blog posts, which by the way, you can you, if you choose to do so, ( and please do please please ) Again its starring my dad, and no, I am not picking on him, it’s just a coincidence that funny things happen  with him!

Once (a long time ago, of course, as in probably 10 YEARS ago) I was listening to this song at home and my dad is like, "who is the singer you are listening to?” and i am like "oh its the back street boys!!" :D and he's like " what the hell? bastard boys? what kind of horrible names do bands have these days! hmph!!'and I’m like "no no dad Back-STREET boys” and he's like "ohhh Battery boys, I see , now that makes more sense!

Another time we were being a long lecture by my ninth grade English teacher about how we kids take it for granted that the “oldies” as she called it, did not know anything about the lastest in what was going on in the entertainment world. She said, “ of course I know what you kids listen to these days! I have young kids too you know, I know all about BRITNEY HOUSTON AND WHITNEY SPEARS’…

Of course this upcoming incident really takes the cake:

A few days ago I out from my room to get a glass of water from the kitchen, I passed by the lounge where I saw my dad sitting watching tv very intently. I went to take a closer look and I saw ( in shock) that he was watching…. Twlight. I stood there frozen for a few seconds unable to move or to believe my eyes. I finally went up to him and asked

Me: Dad… WHAT are you watching
Dad: Oh I am watching THE TWILIGHT ZONE
Me: ( Now trying to keep a straight face, and continued innocently) Really? Is it any good? Whats the movie about?
Dad: Haan.. well its not bad… its ok let see. I don’t know what its about, there is something up with the pale white boy
Me: Really?
Dad; Yeah, I Guess we will find out later
Me: ( now being able to take it any longer) dad! He is a VAMPIRE
Dad: oh ho! Why did you tell me! You spoilt the whole movie! You told me the ending!
Me: hahah, abbu! That’s what the movie its supposed to be about, and its for teenagers not for you, please don’t watch it!!
Dad: why? Whats wrong with it?
Me: well you see this other guy? He’s a wearwolf! – and it’s about a teenage love triangle between them! ( a little surprised at myself at having that much knowledge about the story)
Dad: Really?
Me: Yeah now pleases don’t watch it! It's lame!
Dad: haha ok ok..

I went away back to my room and when I came back an hour later I saw Edward zooming across the screen in the air and my dad was STILL sitting there!

Ah well, to each their own   :)

Thursday, October 7, 2010

# 26 - Bad Mood

Life can be so unfathomable sometimes. Sometimes I just don’t understand why things have to be the way they are. It’s horrible, wonderful, beautiful, ugly, cruel and kind all at the same time. A mélange of contradicting feelings, emotions and experiences .I experience all of it. At once. It’s sometimes too much to take. It over whelms to the point that it becomes hard to breathe. I feel fascinated & repulsed. I am thankful and yet I resent. I feel strong and still broken into a million fragile pieces .I do not know if I am strong or weak .I guess I am both. The overall feeling has me weakened to the point of no return, yet I manage to hold on, to smile, to laugh out loud, to love and to pray.

Have I actually managed to do away with the bad and keep the good? Or I have just become so used to the bad being a part of life that I just live with it. Ignoring it for the most part.

# 25 - The tekki

Parents and Technology. Never has there been a more entertaining (and lovable) combo. Our folks grew up in a time where life was simple and straight forward. Lifes greatest pleasures came in boxes labeled going to the cinema, or going for a drive to Seaview, technology was simple and slow paced, writing letters to distant relatives, and waiting for weeks for correspondence ,'booking' a long distance call for 3 minutes to talk to some far flung relative in the U.S.A.

Actually most of us aged twenty-something, ( Oh God, I can actually be classified as a twenty-something now :s) also grew up in those times. Ah, the nineties, good times .I'm sure my fellow 'twenty-something’s' remember. The cartoons on STN/NTM, the long-anticipated trips to Mr.Burger,Ainkak wala Jinn,Jet Sport being for only 2.5 rupees ,er the back to the future trilogy :D. 

Anyway, then came the internet, broad band, cable tv, and the mobile technology boom and everything changed .Forever. Suddenly we were thrown into the world of instant messaging, rapid file sharing, orkut, face book etc.

We being kids at the time, we quick to adapt,but most of our parents they sort of got a little confused along the way, God bless their dear hearts ( how clihed was that line? :D) It's quite adorable to watch them be fascinated or else completely baffled to no end with things we take for granted.

Once a cousin of mine had to check her email for her mom, and the conversation went something like this:

Khala: I ! ( that’s my cousins name) check the email for me!
I : Yeah mom, I am going to XYZ’s house, I’ll check it from there
Khala: How can you check it from someone elses house? Its MY email
I: Yeah so that’s no problem I can check it from elsewhere
Khala: But How would MY email be in someone else’s computer!!  I don’t want anyone else to read it!
I: (sigh) But no its your email mom, no one else can read it!
Khala: Then why is it on someone else’s computer?!!
I: It is not on someone elses computer, I can just access it, its like making a phone call!
Khala: What do you mean?!! I thought you got the mail from the computer!

Another time a friend of mine had his mom angry at him for spending too much time on the internet, she was like

Tum Hamesha internet khun khelytey rehey ho??

Same goes for cell phones as well, my dad got a new touch screen for himself phone recently and he is convinced that it is the epitome of all technology. Example:

Dad to random relative: See! I have a new phone
Random Relative: Wow very nice, congrats
Dad: See, my phone is really cool it has a touch screen zip zip zip ( locks and unlocks it in rapid succession three four times to prove it)
RR: Yeah I can see it! Real nice!
Dad: Is YOUR phone touch screen?
RR: er, yeah it is see ( shows their phone)
Dad: Yeah good good for you, todays technology is really amazing I tell you, especially THIS phone! See! it also has a zip zip zip… CALCULATOR!
RR: er…yeah of course it does, but every phone has one!
Dad: they do??
RR: Yeah they do.
Dad: oh okay but that’s just one simple thing, forget that, my phone has an MP3 player as well!
RR: How nice I do too!
Dad: ( frowning now) really?... I thought it was not very common
RR: Well, yeah it is. But its still a good thing to have
Dad: Well yeah.... But I bet you don’t have blue teeth!!

*sorry dad, love you, but I couldn’t resist writing this