# 39 - Time Warp

Wow now just see this- I an unable to write for weeks and suddenly now I am going on a written rampage. Two posts in the same day!  ( Yes, that is mildly sarcastic)  Looks my muse is in commune with me once again.

Anyway, I was just pondering, about random stuff like I usually do and I have realized that apart from when I have a deadline due at work, (bah!) time has slowed down SO much lately!. Each minute takes at least three times the amount of time to pass. I want things to move ahead already, I want to know what happens next, and even though there are certain things that I must do in order to make those things happen, I want that do be DONE and see what's up ahead. I have never felt so impatient ever.

I hope it comes along soon, or else God give me patience.

# 26 - Bad Mood

Life can be so unfathomable sometimes. Sometimes I just don’t understand why things have to be the way they are. It’s horrible, wonderful, beautiful, ugly, cruel and kind all at the same time. A mélange of contradicting feelings, emotions and experiences .I experience all of it. At once. It’s sometimes too much to take. It over whelms to the point that it becomes hard to breathe. I feel fascinated & repulsed. I am thankful and yet I resent. I feel strong and still broken into a million fragile pieces .I do not know if I am strong or weak .I guess I am both. The overall feeling has me weakened to the point of no return, yet I manage to hold on, to smile, to laugh out loud, to love and to pray.

Have I actually managed to do away with the bad and keep the good? Or I have just become so used to the bad being a part of life that I just live with it. Ignoring it for the most part.