# 105 - Take a walk with me.( Here we go again) – Part 1

I feel it coming once more, here we go again

Where? Where are you going?

Well, well are not literally going anywhere. I meant it metaphorically

I knew that, I was just saying.

Oh. Okay then. But let’s pretend we are going somewhere, would you like to walk with me?

Sure.

Sorry, it is getting a little dark here.

Where are we by the way?

In the deep recesses of my mind

I see, is that why it is so dark in here?

It is not always so dark, sometimes there is light

Ok, but why not now?

I am not sure. I think I know the reason, but I might be mistaken.

Alright, shall we keep walking in the meanwhile?

Yes, I suppose we should, we need to find the light

It’s been a while now; do you even know where you are going?

I think I do, I hope I am not going around in circles.

Let’s just keep moving and see what happens.

I think I need to rest a while

But why? Why now? When you have almost gotten through the darkness?

I don’t ….. I don’t know. I don’t even know why I am doing this.

It is the right thing to do.

Are you sure? What if I should turn back?

That is something only you can answer for yourself.

If I could, then I wouldn’t be asking you

What I say does not matter. You need to decide for yourself.

You are right. Damn it. This place is like a maze….wait! I think I see some light in the distance

You do? That’s great! Let’s get to it!

No. Not right now. We must rest

Why? Its so close!

I know. I want to get there eventually But we must wait a while.

Ok, if you say so.

How much longer will we have to keep sitting here? I want to get a move on!

Not that long. Do you hear that?

Hear what?

That! That voice. It’s saying something

I can’t hear anything. Maybe only you are supposed to hear it.

Maybe.

# 24 - The Matrix

Do you ever get the feeling you are being watched? That your every move is monitored and judged. Every email and text message (gasp!) known to the world. That everyone you ever trust with something that could ruin you is actually telling that to everyone?

No, I am not some paranoid freak (Although I am some of the time) but sometimes I feel that you cannot trust anyone. That we are all being observed, every movement, every slip up noted down and noticed. (Yes, I know God is watching, but that’s the positive side to it) I’m taking about a dark, negative man-made force. One that you always need to be wary of, the one that’s just waiting to screw you over.

It’s a scary thought, one that I don’t like pondering on much but sometimes it’s there. Its makes me want to stop talking to people, to weigh every word I say. Because once you say it out loud, or press the send button on that text, it’s gone, its out there man, and you cannot get it back no matter what you do. How many times has one said something or sent a text and then instantly regretted it? Ah, I see many hands up in the air, yes my friends; it’s a sad dilemma of human nature. We cannot shut ourselves in and if we dare to put our selves out there then we should least anticipate the (potential) consequences.

By the way, I just realized I am totally contradicting myself , I have a blog for Godsakes and I’m putting mind out  for the whole world to read! That is a scary thought, yes. But I guess no one is perfect, I am going to take the (not-so-calculated) risk. Hey, at least I’ll be popular ( Oh Gawd, how shallow was that?)  :S